Again this silence..I think I have no more excuses now, just being terribly busy. I am back to work now and after the working day there seems to be so little time left for anything! I am loving it though. After a year at home with the baby work seems like 5 days a week holiday! I know it probably sounds horrible but for me this is a perfect balance. I cannot handle being staying-at-home-mum, it really drives me crazy. I need my own life and I need to have challenges in my life -my brain needs stimulation and what I do for work certainly does it. It is also so glorious to have my morning coffee peacefully before starting to work.
We found a perfect nanny for our little daughter and we could not notice any change in her behaviour when I started working -pretty amazing. She sleeps as well (as badly as usually :)) and she is not any clingier or more tearful when I finish the work. In fact she is the happiest baby you can ever imagine as the nanny does all sort of wonderful activities with her all day long. So all in all, this is the most amazing arrangement we could have ever hoped for. My husband has a happy wife and we have a happy baby.
I was quite depressed the last couple of months staying at home only. Even though I have lots of friends with babies it was still not enough for me, I needed some balance and I wanted to see myself not as a 24/7 mother but also a capable career woman with a drive to work. I know it means less baking and cooking and therefore probably less frequent blog posting but it is better. My usually so positive and cheerful personality changed drastically by the end of the last year and I felt like I was not myself anymore. I was just sad and miserable all the time and every day seemed to just repeat itself. Same fights with the baby over eating (without any success!) and acting as a constant entertainment machine day after day, month after month. I know there are women out there who are at their happiest when they can stay at home full time and I certainly admire them but I am not one of those I get not only a cabin fever but huge anxiety. Now I feel so happy every day when I started working. I meet adults, I can communicate with people who do not throw themselves to the floor when they get annoyed and I can challenge myself in a working life. Wonderful..and my new job is great too!
As my baby still does not eat I tried the” NHS approach”, the approach the dietician here in England suggested, that was ”feed your baby with pizza, cakes, crisps, ice cream, add sugar to everything..to get calories in”. Well, of course I cannot give dairy, eggs or gluten to her so I baked this banana blueberry cake. It was super good..although she spitted it out straight away and threw rest of it to the floor -no success with the NHS approach either. So I won’t try this unhealthy suggestion any more.
Anyway, don’t believe my baby, her taste buds do not exist, this cake is really good. Our American friend who is visiting us here absolutely loved it. It was his birthday yesterday so it was kind of his birthday cake. I hope you enjoy the recipe too. It is simple and quick and of course you can use regular flour if you do not need a gluten free version.
4 1/2dl (2 1/4 cup) white flour (white gluten free flour)
2 dl (1 cup) sugar
1 1/2 tsp baking powder
1 1/2 tsp vanilla sugar
3 dl (1 1/2 cup) blueberries (frozen are fine)
2 1/2dl (1 1/4 cup) rice milk or regular milk if you can eat dairy
1 1/4 dl (1/2 cup) dairy free melted margarine or regular margarine
1. Combine the dry ingredients.
2. Mash the bananas. Mix the mash with rice milk and melted margarine.
3. Combine the blueberries with dry ingredients and then banana mix.
4. Pour to the cake tin and bake 50-55 min in 175 Celsius degrees.
Tip: Add some Betty Crocker icing on top and it is even more delicious!